Some songs entertain. Some get stuck in your head.
And then there are a few that break you wide open.

That’s what “Only God Knows” by Struggle Jennings and Jelly Roll did to me.

When My Wife Hit Play

I didn’t find the song by accident. My wife sent it to me.
She knows me. She knows the roads I’ve walked, the weight I’ve carried, and the unspoken battles I’ve fought. When she shared it, I knew right away that it wasn’t just about music—it was about a message.

“God knows I’ve drank with the Devil / Been as high as the angels…”

That line wasn’t just lyrics. It was a reflection. Of my story. Of seasons of regret, isolation, and struggle. Of doing things I’m not proud of, but still somehow clinging to the hope that redemption is real.

The Line That Broke Me

“No, I ain’t sold my soul / But I damn near came close…”

That one stopped me cold.

I’ve never fully put into words how close I came to letting go—not just of dreams, but of myself. But when I heard those lyrics, it was like someone had finally said the thing I couldn’t. I’ve stood on that line. I’ve questioned my worth. I’ve carried guilt that didn’t leave quietly.

But I never walked alone.

A Light in the Darkness

My wife has been a light through all of it. When I forgot who I was, she reminded me. When I couldn’t see beyond the fog, she pointed toward the horizon.

And maybe most powerfully—she saw this song and saw me. Not the polished version, not the one who keeps going—but the one who almost didn’t.

Sometimes, we don’t need someone to fix us.
We just need someone to say, “I see you. I still believe in you.”

That’s what she did. And that’s what God continues to do.

Why I Recorded a Video

I don’t record many personal reflections. But I had to speak on this one.

I sat down and talked about what this song stirred up in me—about survival, grace, the deep need to be seen, and how even when we think no one understands, God does. He knows the entire story—especially the parts we try to hide.

If you’ve ever felt lost, if you’ve ever been close to giving up, if you’re holding on by a thread—you’re not alone.

🎥 Watch the video here: [Only God Knows – My Story of Struggle, Grace, and Holding On]

Tell Your PeopleIf someone has been your light, your steady hand, your reason to keep going—tell them. Let them know they matter.
I’m grateful every day for my wife, who has been that for me.
And I’m grateful that songs like this exist—to help us say what we sometimes can’t.

Only God knows how far we’ve come.
And sometimes, that’s more than enough.

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